I had a horrible nightmare earlier when I was sleeping (I’m on night shift at work). It freaked me out so much that I was actually a film cliché: sit upright straight from sleep.
I dreamt there was a man looking through my work, saying “Wrong. Not correct. Where did you get all this data? Appalling! Wrong. Wrong. Wrong! That‘s not right!” He completely ignored my responses while he kept saying this or that was wrong. It got worse and worse. He held one up for my inspection. It was wrong, but it was right when I added it. So what went wrong? Paranoia began to crawl around beneath my skin. All the while, there was a car outside crashing into another car.
We were inside an “office” with a wall – between this room and the road – missing. I could ‘feel’ a slow-motion spray of broken glass hitting my face, but I still didn’t move. There was another collision between two cars. Much screaming from occupants trapped inside a car on fire. I wanted to run out onto the street to rescue them, but I was stuck where I was, listening to this man.
I got more and more anxious, torn between listening to this seemingly-important man while all these terrible sounds from these cars crashing and people screaming in pain from the outside getting in the way.
The man suddenly pointed at something on a proposal and asked if I was out of my fucking mind when I spotted a little child walking cross a road. There was a lorry coming in a direction that it’d hit the child any moment. I woke up.
Heh. I haven’t had a nightmare for a long time. Such an odd dream. It did make me crawl to my laptop and double-checked the proposal. There wasn’t any mistakes or such, so it’s rather peculiar the dream happened.
It does make me feel anxious, wondering if I forgot something crucial. Or perhaps a source is flawed. Or the data isn’t done correctly. I have 14 proposals set to go so I’m wondering if it’s worth double checking each to be sure? Or perhaps it’s a sub-conscious reaction to the notion that I’d not be working from March onwards. It’s the first time I’ll be 100% unemployed since I was maybe 17. Yeah, I think that must be it.
Or it’s just a random dream that happens to be creepy as duck. I wonder why we have nightmares? Or dream at all, indeed. Well. I’d better dunk my head in a basin of ice-cold water before I start working. 
Oh, Books!
I bought 27 e-books earlier today. *a-hem* I’m too embarrassed to explain how that happened, but I can say it’s Avidbookreader Keishon’s fault. She mentioned a book. I investigated. Roughly two hours later I’m a “licensee” of 27 books. Lovely. Actually, I can also blame three more: Christine (friend in real life), DA Jane and Rosario as they also recommended books I’d like to try.
Oh, and Rachel for recommending two Harlequin comics* after reading my Linda Howard comics post. *For Sunita (the only other one I know who reads HQN comics), those two recs are:
- Heartbreaker [Amazon UK] by Diana Palmer and Ruka Kirishima (Kirishima’s art style looks incredibly similar to Mika Sadahiro‘s style, which makes me suspect Kirishima is Sadahiro.)
- Amber By Night [Amazon UK] by Sharon Sala and Mayu Takayam (judging by its blurb: plain jane librarian by day, sexy waitress by night, heh!)
Both were purchased through Amazon’s Kindle for PC. Should be an interesting reading experience.
I’ll post a list of other books I bought tomorrow. Once I get over this bad case of impulsive shopper’s guilt that is. I can’t read any of these books until my to-do list is cleared, though. Boo hoo.