Random: Am bankrupting by a rising sleep debt

The mite’s night restlessness last week has really got  my sleeping hours at sixes and sevens. I’ll have to find a way to correct the sleeping hours and then, hatch a plan to ensure the mite’s night restlessness won’t happen again. Somehow.

I read quite a few articles and a book about children’s sleeping problems, but I’m beginning to realise that the mite may have inherited my insomnia problem, which I had since birth but sorted out during my mid-twenties. I’m on my knees hoping this is not the case.

I remember how irritated my mum was with me being awake so often. It wasn’t a surprise, really, because she was a single mother, bringing me up literally alone. She was on a tight rope, between wanting to keep us two together while working full-time and having to put me in the care again. This was something she wanted to avoid. So, her solution was to put up a rule: I can play or read as long as I was quiet and wouldn’t leave the bedroom until it was time to get up. Even so, she would come in to shush me. Of course, I was tired and cranky during day, which had her snapping that I should sleep at night. It was chaotic, really. So yeah, unsurprisingly, it was a source of irritation between us, right up to my early teens. lol.

I’m lucky, though. I’m certainly better off than she was because I have a better support system through Will, Anna and the family but still, at the end of the day, it’s still my responsibility. And it’s killing me! I really don’t like being awake during night.

So, Will got a friend – who’s still living in a city where the mite was born – to tape some city sounds at night, to see if that was the reason why the mite constantly woke up. The area we live now is very quiet. Will thinks this may be the reason why the mite woke up. I don’t think so, because we moved from that city to here roughly seven months ago, so the mite should be used to it by now. Anyhow, if it can lull him to sleep and keep him that way ’til morning, I’ll worship that tape. Hell, I’ll build a shrine to it.

//whine alert// I miss a good night’s sleep so much. Too wakeful to sleep. Too tired to read. So I watch a film like a zombie. Quite a few went over my head, but I didn’t care. But I’m confident I’ll find a way to resolve this ongoing problem. Especially when Will’s at home. He travels a lot, so we can’t quite afford to let the mite’s night restlessness affect Will’s sleeping hours. He doesn’t mind, but when he doesn’t get a good night’s sleep, he tends to make mistakes. So when he drives? No thanks. I’d rather have him sleep properly than him wrapping his car around a tree.

Yup, the mite and I’ll see this through. Think optimistically! Actually, I could train myself to read a book and perhaps write a proper review as a way to cope with being awake at night.

Edit: ooh, it’s been eleven months since we moved to here. Eleven months? Already? How time flies.

Edit: Actually, that makes it worse. If it’s been eleven months, the mite should definitely be used to the quietness at night by now. Ack. Why are you so difficult like me, mite? You should be like your father, laid back and easy going.